Damned or not, I am going to get what I want. As long as I am honest with myself about what I want. There is a new dawn finally. And this time will be different, I will not fail. Because there is no more goddamn room for failure. I only need to be pure in my own eyes… Forgiven in the Lords eyes, but pure in my own. I will approach this new dawn with a careful and calm mind. I am the greatest man that ever lived. FACT. Once addicted to a vile bitch of a sun, I am able to move forward and away from the burn. And I will sway toward this calming and somehow chilling and soothing sun. Not for my needs, but the collective needs of our entire universe. The rays from the current dawn are cold like the winter in the north east… But soothing like the sound of an amazing song at that perfect moment.
I will attain my dream life, preferably with Gods help, but if not, I am strong enough to make it happen on my own.
I am the crutch free K. A. The Lord is my savior… And I will not stray from him. But my faith is shaky these days. And it is only because somewhere along the lines, I lost faith in myself. I will have my Empire one day. Hopefully sooner than later, but alas it will be MY EMPIRE. The world is just one fucking obstacle. Life is just a big fucking gauntlet… And I’m not running through the goddamn thing anymore… I’m slowly strolling and kicking through the fucking walls. And I will be a better person for it in the end. Once I reach the other side, I may be a little more bloody and filthy, but at least I will not be too tired from running. And I will address God as a mentor and friend. I will shake his proverbial hand, and with respect, I will kneel before him. And then we are gonna chat a bit. Cause I’ve got some serious questions that indeed need answering. Hopefully I will get those answers on my way to him. But I just feel like it’s gonna be pretty quiet until I kick through that final door.
I sit and watch other people live their lives… I see powerful people. And I know that I can be twice as powerful. I just have to earn it. And I’m well on my way to doing so. My spaceship is missing an engine. I have to earn that new engine. And I will… By building it myself. Bring on the new trials Earth… I’m more than ready for anything that you have to throw at me… Man of Steel, maybe not yet, but I’m getting harder every passing goddamn minute. I fold my hands and welcome the hardest shit that you have to offer… I need it! I beg for it. Because I am only going to get that much better from it all. I’ve got the money and obviously the time. I’ve got the drive…
=K=A=
